i thought i am strong enough to face you,
i let you go,
not because
i don't like you..
i let you go because
im afraid id lose more of you..
you were never a good lover..
but you are the best friend i could ever have..
you want more than friendship..
i make a joke out of it,
scared that if we did try..
we couldn't be friends anymore if things won't work out..
then you found someone else..
i stayed away..
another man came,
i fall for him
then we became so distant..
after years the new guy and i broke up..
then out of the blue you showed up..
i got hurt, and cried so hard..
i thought i already forgot about the pain..
i thought i got over you..
but then...
i didn't
i didn't
...
yes we did meet again,
in a not so normal way..
you said hi..
i act friendly..
you tried to get close again.,
i guarded my heart.
again I failed..
yes we became close again but after a day or so..
you leave.
no goodbyes.
no promises.
nothing...
i thought i was able to guard my heart.
but at these very moment.
my tears began 2 fall again..
BECAUSE OF YOU!
but you would never see this tears of mine.
the tears that fall because of you.
you would never know how much I hurt.
NEVER!
i thought you are just nothing but..,
but with just like that, you were able to break my heart again..
just like that.
just like that.
JUST LIKE THAT!
i hate being hurt..
i hate crying.
i hate liking you.
or maybe loving you..
i don't want to know..
what my feelings for you are..
im too afraid..
because even if i love you..
i would still want to be friends..
just friends..
:'(
broken and confused
