until when..

you were lying on your bed.. half asleep..
thinking of the what ifs, thinking of maybes..
you were neither asleep nor awake..

and then you suddenly got up..
put your back on the wall while your feet were right perpendicular to you..

you tried to put your hand right at the top of your left chest..
you can still feel your heart beating..
for some unknown reason.. it still is beating..

thoughts were flowing in your brain..
yeah.. too many things are running on your mind as of the very moment..
like what happened to your first love..
and how were you able to survived the second..
the third and the fourth..
you gave your whole heart
but they returned it to you in pieces..

how could a piece of your body part be so flexible,
like undergoing some sorts of self healing method..
could someone totally forgot about everything..
there would always be that part you can't erase no matter what..
but there's always a choice of not remembering..
of not caring.. of not minding..

when interest is lost.. a second chance wouldn't stand a possibility....
no it wouldn't..

you tried to get up..
went to your veranda..
right there you saw how those tall trees are dancing with the wind..


(to be continued..)