I would never be part of your world.
I may try and try to be in it, but not even in your mind i could enter, how much more your heart?
I was just a stray girl. Lost and don't know where to go.
I've been longing that somehow I would feel what those people called "true love".
Somehow I thought you could give that to me.
I saw you were shining bright.
Your smile, your talk, your move just sweeps me off my feet.
I fell hard, maybe hit rock bottom.
Who wouldn't in any way fall for the charms I saw in you.
Only too late to notice you may be looking my way but not at me.
You may talk to me but leave right away.
You may have laugh with me. But you're just a person who always laugh.
You maybe telling me stories. But you have closest friends whom you tell more.
I always thought I was someone special until I figure out I wasn't.
Of course it's painful, of course it hurts, of course it almost sucks the life out of me.
Energy drained. Love zeroed.
No matter how hard I compete it wouldn't change anything.
I would always be placed the least.
I only wish if I cried hard. I'll get over this feeling.
I only wish that someday I wouldn't be experiencing this.
Yes I have felt true love. But wasn't able to receive the same.
He has so much in him that he has to take care of.
He didn't even want me to take part of it.
He could do it all to himself.
Though they were many he could handle them.
And the only help I could give is...
Give him less problems.
Stay out of his life.
He doesn't need another pain in the a** to deal with.
That's what he said to me.
That I should have at least try to understand his situation.
He has a lot going on with him.
And he don't need another piece of crap.
If I wanted to help. I could just exist and shut up.
I love him
That is what I feel right now.
I still love him and wanted to be with him.
..but someday I may not..
or may still..
